becoming Me

eep :) finally! FINALLY i have found a decent guy down here in indy…ahhhh :D so happy that i met someone who isn’t a complete douche who just wants to get it in. it’s going well so far so i’m keeping my fingers crossed. anndddddd he has blue eyes -drooling-. i’m such a sucker for blue eyes. andd he’s in the greek community with all my guy friends. which is even better…except for the fact one of my best friends has a HUGE crush on me…and they’re brothers -__-.  well, hopefully this goes well and doesn’t hit the fan.

ahh….

i always get myself into these situations…

i haven’t burned your hoodie yet, i promise.

ironically i still have it laying on the pillow next to me. i’ve kinda gotten into the habit of holding it close ever so often. every time i smell your cologne i ache inside. i’ve deleted your number out of my phone and i haven’t made any attempt to contact you. i mean you sure as hell haven’t made an attempt either but frankly i think thats because your back up your ex’s ass. you can only party so much ‘til you feel even more empty than you did before. i don’t even know if i believe the whole ‘had to go home early because of dinner’ thing anymore. if you even remotely cared for me, you would’ve talked to me by now. yet i have not gotten a single text or facebook message since friday march 16th. so, like i’ve said a thousand times before, hope she’s worth it but i sure as hell don’t wanna hear about it ever again. frankly i don’t know if i even want to hear from you. it’s probably pointless. good thing i’ve already taken your picture down.

have fun in IA.